not much going on..

so.. it's slowly sinking in that puncakes is a baby girl.. it still feels weird to say "she".. or "her".. but now we know.. at least with a little over 90% certainty.. :) it's been a very good few days since the last post.. my brother was just offered a job.. and he will be moving to a new place.. doing new things.. and finally making some real money.. what's better than that?? as for me.. i'm officially no longer looking for a job.. at a little over 19 weeks, i'm starting to look preggers and i can't imagine going to interview a few months from now.. i'll just take this for what it is and enjoy a few months at home with our baby girl.. it's weird not looking for a job.. i feel like my job over the last 18 months has been to find a job.. obviously i haven't succeeded but i still had a purpose every day.. now i'm playing a waiting game..

other than my brother's news.. i will be going to see family in mexico for a little under a week.. jeremy will have the apartment allllll to himself and i'm sure that a big part of him is looking forward to some peace and quiet.. at least for a few days and then he'll start missing me.. and then i'll be back.. it all works out perfectly, don't you think?? anyway.. going to mexico from sunday morning to next saturday morning.. and while there, my mom is throwing me a baby shower!!! it's going to be interesting to say the least.. my mom's in her early 60's but for some strange reason, she hangs out with women wayyyyy older than her.. so that means that the average age at this baby shower will probably be closer to 75.. lol.. and i'm not even exaggerating!

speaking of baby showers.. i know that technically they're meant to be thrown much closer to the baby's due date.. but since my friends are on crazy schedules and don't live by me.. we're going to throw the US version at the end of june.. i will have some friends coming in for the dodger - yankee series that weekend.. so we thought, why not?? everyone seems to be on board and the key players will be in LA.. which, with my crowd.. is not necessarily a given!! :)

ok.. well.. i might write before heading off to mexico.. but if not, will be writing from there.. tomorrow we're going to see robin hood and i'm excited.. i think russell crowe plays that type of character really well.. for example.. gladiator's marcus aurelius.. or whatever his name was there :)

hasta la proxima,
cuppy!

and the verdict is...

we officially found out a few hours ago that puncakes is a baby GIRL!!!!!! in all honesty.. both jeremy and me were pretty sure we were going to have a boy.. just goes to show you that intuition is not always right.. we are so happy though!! :) there's nothing like the bond between a daddy and his little girl.. no matter how old she may be.. it's completely unique and i am a firm believer that it shapes her male relationships throughout her life.. i am lucky enough to be very close to my own daddy-o.. and this isn't meant to sound weird or anything.. but jeremy seriously has many of the same traits.. i have absolutely no doubt that he will be the best daddy to puncakes.. and i can't wait to see him fall in love and be wrapped around her teeny tiny pudgy little finger..

is it too early to start thinking about her father/daughter dance??

cuppy :)

looking for the "money shot"

today is monday may 3rd.. which means that tomorrow is tuesday may 4th.. the day that we could potentially find out if puncakes is a baby boy or girl, assuming baby cooperates.. i can say that i'm super excited.. but i don't think that gets the real emotion across.. i've known i was pregnant since the end of january.. i'm not necessarily showing just yet, since i had my belly from before hand so i can't put the "blame" on puncakes for that.. but anyway.. back to what i was saying - so even though we've known we've been pregnant for over 3 months now.. and since then.. we've done the ultrasounds.. seen the sonograms and.. most importantly.. heard the heartbeat - with all that being said, tomorrow makes puncakes that much more real to me.. i don't know why.. but actually calling the baby by the names we've chosen would just solidify this whole process.. i love calling baby puncakes.. and i'm sure that we will continue doing that even after baby's born.. but after tomorrow.. i will say baby lyla.. or baby quinn.. those are the names we're going with for girl and boy (respectively).. lyla we've been sold on for quite some time so i'm fairly certain it will stick.. for the boy's names.. we've gone from liam.. to luca.. and as of last week.. quinn.. the middle name will be maximus either way.. :)

so yeah.. i'm excited.. and i cannot wait.. but i still have 21 hours to go.. so until then, i'll have to find ways to keep myself occupied.. it's funny.. did i tell you that i've already lost my identity ever since we told friends and family we were expecting?? it's odd.. jeremy is still being called jeremy.. no one's called me by my name in months.. i'm just "mama" now.. and i've been told it only gets worse.. when they go to school.. you're literally just bla bla's mom.. maybe i'll get used to it.. but for now.. i keep repeating my name after they say mama.. most of my closest friends don't have babies yet.. so i'm sure that i will be returning the favor at some point soon.. until then though.. i guess i'll just have to embrace this

in the next week or two (or 3).. i'm supposed to feel the baby kick.. i don't really have any idea what that feels like.. so i've been doing my research, as usual.. and it's described as "quickening".. kind of like a butterfly going off in your belly.. doesn't that sound super strange?? yeah.. i think so too.. others say it feels like popcorn popping and finally.. i've also read that it feels like gas and it's very hard to differentiate the two.. but eventually it all becomes crystal clear.. especially once the baby gets bigger and stronger.. maybe we'll even see hand and foot prints towards the last few weeks.. that would completely freak me out.. or maybe i'll think it's cute by then?? who knows.. emotions are all over the place during this time..

well, this is all for today - next time i write, i hope to be calling puncakes by their upcoming given name...

might as well sign off with what we've been talking about..
lyla's mama / quinn's mama

:)